Tuesday, July 11, 2006

you ever regret writing crap?

I found a forgotten blog of mine on blogger. Let me tell you…I am one emo yotch. Let’s revisit, shall we?

January 2001

there are some things
that poetry,
a hot shower,
and a lazy sunday afternoon
can`t even cure.

purge myself in days
i poured laughter in the air
in layers so thick…
i felt empty afterwards.

i press my fingers
against the blue sky
and feel my body slowly
readjust itself into the crevice
where my happiness hid.

and only then
would i remember that this existed
forgetting to map
the way back
forgetting the days i`d need the added comfort
of its presence.

in the meantime
my fingertips roam
the valleys between my shoulders,
the hills of my heart,
and the borders between my truths
searching for that void.

waiting to be filled.
knowing no other function.

AND THEN! (another part of another entry….)

augmented truth linnea said on new year’s eve:

“see, hanalei’s an idiot who plays hard to get. then when she realizes that boys do like her, she remembers that she still believes in cooties.”

I really wish i could go back in time and tell the then-me that it was all gonna work out. : )

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Hanalei Ramos is a very nice person and a stereotypical aquarius. FACT: while it is a common misconception that “aquarius, the water bearer” is a water sign, it is not. It is actually an air sign! Other than that, she is a proud founding member of Filipinas for Rights and Empowerment, a mass-based organization for Filipinas in the NYC area. Hanalei has also toured around the country as a performer and is the author of Foiled Stars, Letters to Martha, and the one-woman show, Guns and Tampons: A History of Violence Against Women I Know. Hanalei currently lives and works in her native Jersey City, NJ. For more information about her, please visit www.hanaleihanalei.com

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